Saturn has a dry sense of humour…
Hello everyone, if indeed there is anyone still out there after my 2 year silence…my apologies if you were enjoying my scribbling’s and lucky you, if not. :)
Well, I am just mopping up after my second Saturn Return which was an experience and a half and then some. But I have Saturn in crisis orientated SCORPIO anyway – so no surprises there.
But I will back up a moment and give a quick recap for any of you that may not be familiar with the ‘famous’ Saturn return or even, for that matter, the planet Saturn.
How about if we strip everything away and just say that SATURN is astro code for the principle of contraction. Open your hand – that’s Jupiter, close your hand – that is Saturn. That makes Saturn the ‘reality maker’ in each of us. We close or contract our field of energy around a thought/feeling form and make it real to ourselves. That is one of the reasons that Saturn exalts (works most positively) in the sign of Libra. The SCALES can represent legal contracts and closings – we shake hands and say it is now done, it’s real, it will have consequences…
The astronomers have discovered that Saturn is not alone in having rings but Saturn’s rings are certainly the most dense and obvious to the naked eye. But the symbolism is beautiful, eh? The symbol of contraction surrounded by dense rings made up of rock and ice.
Now, I am afraid that I must diverge here for a moment to air a point that I think is missed over and over in these ‘rationed’ times of scientific materialism. What if, when ASTROLOGY was being formulated, the people at the time did not experience the material world the way we do now. What if they understood something completely different about the phenomenal world around us. For a start, they called it phenomena. The word phenomena from the Greek phainomenon means “that which appears or is seen.
Perhaps it was not as real, hard, factual and permanent as we are told it is in this day and age. Let’s imagine that to them, the visible was primarily symbolic, messages from the spirit world, games played by the gods, reflections of inner states or signs and portents. What seemed to be important to these people was their relationship to spirit in whatever form including gods, ancestors, demons, daimons, faerie, jinn, angels and so on.
The impression I get from history (and herstory) is that our ancient ancestors did not value an individual physical life in the way we do now. Slavery was the norm, as was putting people to death at the whim of the rulers. Dying in glorious battle was a good thing, the Japanese committed ritual suicide to avoid shame and what about the stories of killing defective babies by the Spartans in ancient Greece?
The understanding that the material world around us is not as solid or permanent as we are taught to believe is still, in my opinion, at the base of understanding what we astrologers work with.
When a serious astrologer talks about Saturn or any other celestial phenomena, including planet earth most of us do not concern ourselves with the physical issue of how or whether the actual gas giant is sending mysterious rays down into planet earth and causing Auntie Em to pop her clogs. We leave that to the scientists of the future.
Astrologers work with what these planets SYMBOLIZE and the universal, omnipresent forces that they symbolize are yet to be measured. Once the material scientists can measure such potent and I might add, omnipresent forces such as LOVE, then perhaps…
OK, point made and back to the Saturn Return. Saturn has a 29 1/2 year cycle which brings it back at that age and again at 58 years, to its position it held on the day and hour you were born. That means that amongst other cycles, the symbolism is telling us that for a cycle of CONTRACTION to complete itself on planet earth, 29 1/2 years (with a build up and a release) must go by before a new cycle can be properly initiated.
Personally, this means that in the first 29 years of your life your ‘reality tunnel’ (which may have been constructed by default from your family, school, social conditioning, past life leftovers, birth traumas and joys that hooked your attention and set your survival commands) can be taken onto a new level. Hopefully, onto a more conscious level.
Now at 29, the party is over (or if you are awake – just beginning) and you are given an opportunity to take responsibility and begin to build a manifested reality of your own choosing. Most people choose not to, because it requires facing your fears or going back to square one and at that time of life most of us are up to our eyeballs in pressing material concerns such as making money, taking on a mortgage or rent, children, marriages and building careers. And all the time, unconsciously, building our adult lives on the foundations of old conditioning.
The opportunity then passes and we continue to build on the foundations of the previous cycle. Usually, this cycle has nothing to do with what we ourselves as individuals really want to create in our lives. We convince ourselves to accept reality the way it is and just get on with it. That is what grown-ups and good citizens do, right? But all is not lost.
We get another opportunity at the next Saturn return which occurs around age 58-60. Unfortunately, by now, some but not all, have let their survival fears grow into Godzilla sized proportions, so much so that all they care and obsess about is safe guarding their retirement accounts. I am aware that I am generalizing but these fears are in all of us, albeit in different emotional proportions.
Saturn doesn’t sound like much fun, I know. Yet, Saturnian energy properly and positively utilized can be the most fun of all. After all, we are talking about THE reality maker, the part of us that can actualize our goals and desires.
Of course, there is that little caveat about first having to face your fears ( making them conscious) and seeing them for what they are – little corrupt danger programs that have become big hungry programs sucking our energy in secret and creating a ton of resistance every time we want to act outside of our conditioning.
Whatever you try to construct in your reality will be sabotaged by any fear and resistance lurking in the shadows. That is why the energy in these programs must be released first and then used to build new constructive programs.
Think about a habit you have, something you have been doing for years, which means something you have been feeding energy to via attention and action. Now, just stop doing it for a month. That part of you that has been formed out of that habit will not just go quietly. It can and will use many different strategies to resume the status quo. It may lay in wait for a moment of weakness and throw in a desire so strong that you can’t resist. It may threaten you with feelings of arising rage, make you sick or even attract those who will tempt you back to the habit. You know the drill, you have been there a million times.
What you may not fully appreciate is that since you created these habits to begin with – you have the power to uncreate them. The main mistakes that many people make is that, firstly, they underestimate the power trapped within these sub-entities. Hence, once they begin to release they think 5 minutes is enough time to deal with them. Secondly, they believe that these unconscious forces could not possibly exist without them being aware of them. In a way, that is true but what we get fooled by is the mask of the habit rather than its true identity.
For example, when I was a smoker, I was convinced that cigarettes were my friend (the mask), helping me to keep my intense emotions under control. When I finally saw what the habit truly was and managed to convince myself of this truth (this was the hard part), I was able to stop overnight and actually enjoy the detox!
The process required to release the energy is not a walk in the park and if you are not thorough and release it all then these psychological programs can just retreat into the shadows and re-establish themselves. The ancients called these psychological forms – demons. All the bits of our psyche that we reject, resist and…well…demonize.
In my experience, I had to feel the feelings until I no longer felt any resistance to them. For me, the technique is to practice non resistence and totally embrace the energy as it returns despite its intensity or its form. Even when the form could have established itself in childhood and now seems impossible to take seriously with an adult mind set.
Take for instance, the feeling of fear associated with being without my nicotine crutch. Yet, what was this really, except a small immature part of myself that held onto the illusion that she was emotionally unsupported. In the end, the overall release is unconditional love and forgiveness. But you have to really mean it! Watch out for those false summits…
And how do you know when you have reached the metaphorical top of the mountain? Instantaneous change – problem solved – bad guy exits the scene – smoking habit gone. When you have truly forgiven the results are astonishing and obvious.
These ‘demons’ are as invasive as cockroaches, clever as rodents, poisonous as spiders and slithery as snakes. AND they are very clever at getting us to identify with their form (definition) and then resist the energy trying to break out of that form. Divide and rule anyone? We forget how much time and energy we spend during our youth (and life)complaining to ourselves, feeding self pity and judging ourselves and others. And the pressure builds and builds, all the time reinforcing the fears.
Never forget though that though the FORM is not you – the ENERGY animating the form is. For example: Take a very common form, one that is repressed and feared by many, many people. It goes like this: ‘I am not entitled to be free’. Look around at all those trapped in jobs, marriages, parental obligations, financial conditions or political systems that they hate. At a certain level of awareness that is a blatant lie, after all who is the one handing out the entitlements?
But in practice this is a very highly emotionally charged, unconscious and irrational mental habit. Every time that form is reinforced in your life, that’s another bit of your energy locked away, unable to serve you. As the saying goes – what the thinker thinks, the prover proves.
OK! Yes, we are still discussing the principle of contraction. This is where Saturn gets a bad rap when the Old Goat pushes us to respond to our fears. Who wants to concentrate or contract their attention on something that has the properties of roaches, rodents, spiders and snakes? No one in their right mind? Right? Except perhaps Harry Potter – EXPELIAMOS! And like most saviors the idea and the hope is that he kills the grand daddy of all demons (Voldemort, Satan, Beelzebub, Ravana, Sauron, Darth Vader, the DEVIL) and lets the rest of us off the hook. ‘Fraid not.
More Saturnian bad news – we are all responsible for our own demons. We are all here to learn to love ourselves unconditionally. Once we do that Saturn turns creative, it now can work with energy that is free of liens and mortgages to fear based beliefs.
It is all there in the order of the Zodiac. Find and face the shadow – SCORPIO. Intend your individual freedom – SAGITTARIUS. Build a new reality – Saturn ruled CAPRICORN.
One thing I discovered working with these principles during my second Saturn return was an underlying terror of FREEDOM and the responsibility that goes with it. When you are free you need to have the confidence that you can indeed respond to anything and everything that crosses your path. What is it then – are we wanting Freedom or are we wanting freedom from something?
The new Saturn cycle began for me as an invitation. As soon as Saturn entered Scorpio, I began to feel that something was coming to an end. It just happened to be my life in the UK but I did not know it yet. I was being invited to begin a completely new life, but whether I actually accepted the invitation was still anyone’s guess at the time.
My natal Saturn is in the sign of Scorpio. Any decent astrology book will tell you that Scorpio is the sign of death and rebirth, crisis, transformation, extremes, intensity and so on. The small print on the invitation, mentions the facing fears bit and the very small print covers the snakes, rodents, roaches and spiders. Avada Kedavra!
People born with Saturn in other signs will experience their Saturn return according to the sign, house and aspects of their Saturn placement. What they will all have in common is that the during this time the person will experience a contraction and an invitation to focus and take responsibility for the fears surrounding the issues of their Saturn’s house and sign.
Well, I took the invitation, left my marriage, career, home, dear friends and moved into a house in the sub tropics complete with every creepy crawly imaginable. At the time I did not feel that I had a choice, my options felt closed down which is very typical of Saturn. And for the next 18 months is was nose to the grindstone, grinding down all my resistance and fears in letting go of the old Liz.
It did not matter that I knew Astrology and what was going on. Astrological knowledge is not to be used for avoidance but it can raise the whole experience onto a very positive level, increasing the likelihood of a beneficial win-win for everyone involved. I think, without the understanding I had, I would have become seriously ill with the stress.
It is erroneous to think that just because you know something intellectually, you will act accordingly when you are actually put to the test. In order to do that you have to UNDERSTAND which means that you know something experientially. And to know something experientially you have to feel it – fears and all. Standing on the sidelines doesn’t cut it. You have to jump into the drama and play your part. This is the essence of LEO the LION which is the flip side of the other Saturn ruled sign – Aquarius. Astrology is telling us its takes heart and courage to experience life to its fullest.